Monday, January 5, 2015

The Studying Mum

I began my first ever employment at the age of 15 with a casual after school waitressing job at Pizza Hut. I moved towns and took on two after school jobs, as a waitress at Subway and shop attendant at a Newsagents. Since then I have had a few job changes until I started working as an assistant at an ABC Early Learning Centre. I spent 6 years in total as a childcare educator, including role and towns changes until finally; I am a stay at home Mother.

My time at Daycare made me realise my passion for education and love of children and inspired me to strive for more than what childcare could offer me. Among many things the opportunity to make a difference in some children's lives as well as provide my little family with the lifestyle benefits being a teacher brings had me taking the plunge into studying a university degree. 

Two and a half years of part time study in, I am as sure now as the first day that my decision to study while staying at home with my babies was the right decision and one I will never regret. Taking a few semesters off for morning sickness filled pregnancies and also 6 months off after each baby to allow myself the chance to adapt, lead me to re-commence studying in November, just prior to Amelia's first Christmas.

Taking on two subjects seems like to most sensible idea; time efficient without taking on too much. Knowing your limits is key to "stay at home mum studying" but as we were heading away for two weeks over the Christmas period in an already short Summer Semester, I found myself working myself into the ground with a continuous string of 12-1am bedtimes whilst still waking up several times a night to feed and then an early rising toddler, just to pump out 2 assignments and put myself into a position of being one week ahead in preparation for our holiday. 

That was intense! Now our holiday has come to an end and as I am about to dive back in for the final 6 weeks and two more assignments to go before the semester wraps up, I am finding myself dreaming of another semester off to spend enjoying my babies. Giving them more of my time. Long cuddles in bed, playing outside, trips to the park. Life seems so busy already without starving myself of more time that the heavy work load that uni studying consumes.

I know that I must keep chugging along, as the logical side of my analysis kicks in. I don't want the degree to drag out any longer than it has to; and so many other reasons fill the list. Being a studying stay at home mum can feel so conflicting at times and can tear you between the will to be with your children and the drive to fulfil your dream and do what is best for your family... longterm! 

It is so rewarding and a struggle at the same time.

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